current goings on

our time in beavercreek since we've been back has been cool. basically there's a few things you can expect to see whilst in the area.

- family ( they live here )
- elemental stuff ( frost/fog-weather conditions, berries/tomatoes-vegetables )
- new people ( random get togethers & nights out )
- artsy stuff ( columbus trips out to so-called indie art capital )

it's interesting to note that alot of the art seems to be inspired BY the elemental stuff that's basically everywhere. basically those that live in beavercreek / dayton / columbus all live nextdoor to and among some pretty clear nature scenery. however it can be a drag if youre not wishing to hermit yourself. but if youre content with sunsets and winter frosts then youve got a parcel of land and a crappy job waiting for you in beavercreek, ohio.

also it's good to see that there's a real source of good in this part of the world, my parents. really bright outgoing and positive people whose generosity and kindness of heart emnates from their very being. its powerful stuff. but spats about the remoteness of this place often break down things between us. i was moved out here years ago and hated it. for some reason i've stuck around, due to one reason and/or another. but now comes time for me to strike out and do my thing in a place more of my type.

plus the random element of studio-creation-stuff is good to see. there is a force of good in these lands for me and its held within the bowels of the studio i visit out in columbus. its a positive experience for me but columbus is the right place to do it, arty enough, and familiar enough, that it is easy to go straight to work every time. which's very cool. and its a new positive development that this town didn't have before.

as well as now the new people factor. by being more active in my circles, going out and meeting people, im coming into contact with alot of cool people at a steady pace. which's very cool because that's something that's definately needed. still reeling from the removal of many old friends, its hard to kindof piece it all together but over time and having met the right people it can become a cool thing.

but there is one thing clearly missing from this town & region and its the big-city life, the big crowds, the massive amount of people in your tribe, there's just a large vaccuum in its place, that's where the nature has full domain over. so while it might be nice for some photography, and perhaps even for hermited-nature lovers, for those of us who seek the company of other people, there aren't many people whose company we can seek. life in a small town is like life 50 or a 100 even years ago. modern living, as well as modern prosperity, can only be properly enjoyed, in my opinion, in a big city. hence my directing myself towards such a place. currently on radar: san francisco. we'll see how that goes.

strung-together thoughts

some thoughts on anita's friends

so dylan's issue was, he controlls people, he tries to convince them to feel sorry for him, he uses childish antics to get peoples attention, and he tries to get people to be self destructive, and generally dysfunctional. alison's problem was that she was like a minion. she seemed to have no self confidence. and she was also self destructive. alison seemed to feel like she wasn't worth respecting. dylan's whole viewpoint centered on him thinking you should feel sorry for him. and that justifies him acting out. he really does know better. but he tries to trap you in his deception and make you feel sorry for him, which makes you then wanna let him do whatever he wants. and i think alison fell for that, a side effect like seeing if she could constantly try to help him. in that sense she's kinda turned into his nurse maid. but it seems like she wants dylan to call the shots. like she kinda lets dylan lead her around i think. most of their conversations with each other are about dylan. so its just totally like monopolizing on all the conversation.

so it seems like theres leaders and followers. i think im a leader. but ive been a follower in the past. alison follows dylan. echo follows dylan. and kalya follows echo.

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questions for myself

using your own standards of defending your own religion as a standard for how all religions should be defended?

or perhaps allowing the inquisition of religion to be played out in equal form and measure in the way that perhaps you size up other religions, so may your own be sized up in a very equal way.

does this seem right?

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some quotes

dont react off of love. f- love. come out of the situation and look at it third person. and for what it really is. and then make your decision. because love is so blind. - rihanna

your emotions in your mind mess with you - your mind tries to make two things that don't fit, fit, logically. somehow the mind rationalizes it. but its actually your mind fucking with you. and its a hell of a thing to fight that. and emotions a hell of a thing to fight for girls or guys. getting over love is a difficult thing. - the young turks

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some links

http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Women_in_Islam
http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Muammar_al-Gaddafi
http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Michael_Savage_(commentator)#Early_life
http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Chuck_Norris
http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Don_Imus
http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Cenk_Uygur
http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Sammy_Sosa#Personal_life
http://digg.com/tech_news/Mininova_Deletes_All_Infringing_Torrents_and_Goes_Legal
http://digg.com/educational/Muslim_teachers_and_students_reject_Darwin
http://digg.com/environment/What_Explains_Past_Climate_Change
http://digg.com/travel_places/Google_Announces_Plans_to_Digitize_Artefacts_in_Iraqi_Museum
http://digg.com/tech_news/iPhone_Owners_More_Likely_to_Pony_Up_for_Digital_Content
http://digg.com/basketball/New_Jersey_Nets_Extend_Losing_Streak_to_15_Games
http://digg.com/space/Amazing_images_from_Atlantis_s_stint_with_the_Space_Station
http://digg.com/arts_culture/The_Best_Books_of_the_00s
http://digg.com/general_sciences/Scientists_Make_Fuel_from_CO2_Emissions_and_Sunlight
http://digg.com/space/Stellar_Fossils_from_Milky_Way_s_Past_Revealed

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Young Turks quotes

"i know, im playing." - the young turks.

race or ethnicity or faith
"you never understood what this country was about. and you at fox are deeply unamerican and unpatriotic."
"she's bigoted."
"in the conservative circles this kindof bigotry against muslims is absolutely tolerated."
"there are 4 to 5 million muslims in america"

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link

http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/George_Martin

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stuff we need

Record Company
Booking Manager
Recording Studio
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a memory

sitting in that room with laurens friends. awkwardly silent. pissed i was around drugs. lauren seemed cattish on the bed. perhaps playfully rebellious as a lesbian. that seems to be the columbus thing. i can't believe that was lauren's thing. she lives with damien. i'm not sure how that works. they always seemed strange. she always seemed strange. there was a time she was nice. she took me to a beck concert. plus she shared her pills. those were darker times. ive learned to call those self destructive now. but she amped up my music side. as well as my drug side. which i guess was part of my self destruction. its hard to move past the past. she hard to get ahold of. its almost fooling me to get her phone number. i always feel stupid for calling. nothing changes. she never answers. its just the same old stuff.

interesting events taking place

so alot of shits gone on. went to a reuinion thing. wasnt bad. partied. got to really break through and talk to some people seriously. that was cool. also before that met anitas old friends. anita went off by herself to a thanksgiving with her family. and before that we were in the studio. anita made a badass showing on the piano. we've got another one coming up sunday. flight to san fran'll be comin up soon. gotta talk to dad about that. caught grimes, mann, zeyda out at this gettogether, along with jampala, burs,

cbus

so im chillin in columbus. im in a hotel room. the views not bad. anitas here with me. she was out at her thanksgiving dinner earlier. apparently there's photos of her family. her friend allison gave her that well talked about photo cd. we both met the legendary dylan. i cant believe he was so bad. i would compare him to the girl in beavercreek. she was just insane. like a drain on the brain. nothing good came from it.

We're living in the Golden Age of Television.

years things aired:
The Flintstones: 1960-1966
The Jetsons: 1962-1963, 1985-1987
Teenage Mutant Ninja Turtles: 1987-1996
Thundercats: 1985-1990
Dungeons and Dragons: 1983-1985
Thomas the Tank Engine: 1984-present
(ringo starr narrated: 1984-1986)
Shining Time Station: 1989-1993
Captain Planet: 1990-1995
G.I. Joe: 1985-1986
The Herbs: 1968
Paddington: 1975-1986
Button Moon: 1980-1988
Postman Pat: 1981-present
Noels House Party: 1991-1999
Blue Peter: 1958-present
Top Gear: 2002-present
Last of the Summer Wine: 1973-present
Mr. Bean: 1990-1995
The A-Team: 1983-1987
M.A.S.H.: 1972-1983
Later... with Jools Holland: 1992-present
Comic Relief: 1986-present
Dennis the Menace: 1986-1988
This Old House: 1979-present
Antiques Roadshow: 1979-present
Soul Train: 1971-2006
The Smurfs: 1981-1989
Entertainment Tonight: 1981-present
Doug: 1991-1999
Pepper Ann: 1997-2001
Recess: 1997-2004
Knight Rider: 1982-1986
Duck Tales: 1987-1990
Star Trek: The Next Generation: 1987-1994
Creepy Crawlies: 1987-1989
Fireman Sam: 1987-present
Grange Hill: 1978-2008
The Cosby Show: 1984-1992
East Enders: 1985-present
Neighbors: 1985-present
California Raisons: 1989-1989
Attack of the Killer Tomatoes: 1990-1992
Showtime at the Apollo: 1987-present
48 hours: 1988-present
The Wonder Years: 1988-1993
Red Dwarf: 1988-1999
Count Duckula: 1988-1993
Winnie the Pooh: 1988-1991
Garfield and Friends: 1988-1995
Roseanne: 1988-1997
ALF: 1986-1990
Full House: 1987-1995
Married... With Children: 1987-1997
Babar: 1989-present
Samurai Pizza Cats: 1990-1991
Chip n Dale Rescue Rangers: 1989-1993
COPS: 1989-present
Rolf's Cartoon Club: 1989-1993
Tales From the Crypt: 1989-1996
Saved by the Bell: 1989-1993
American Gladiators: 1989-1996
Family Matters: 1989-1998
The Simpsons: 1989-present
TaleSpin: 1990-1994
The Fresh Prince of Bel-Air: 1990-1996
Tiny Toon Adventures: 1990-1992
Seinfeld: 1989-1998
Gilligans Island: 1964-1967
Blossom: 1991-1995
Harry and the Hendersons: 1991-1993
Clarissa Explains it All: 1991-1994
The Red Green Show: 1991-2006
Rugrats: 1991-2005
The Ren and Stimpy Show: 1991-1996
Rupert: 1991-1997
Darkwing Duck: 1991-1993
Home Improvement: 1991-1999
Step by Step: 1991-1998
Carmen Sandiego: 1991-1996
Ghost Writer: 1992-1995
The Real World: 1992-present
Barney and Friends: 1992-present
Goof Troop: 1992-1993
Batman the animated series: 1992-1995
Mad About You: 1992-1999
The Big Breakfast: 1992-2002
X-men: 1992-1997
Danger Mouse: 1981-1992
Dr. Quinn Medicine Woman: 1993-1998
Star Trek: Deep Space Nine: 1993-1999
The Animals of Farthing Wood: 1992-1995
Walker, Texas Ranger: 1993-2001
Mighty Morphin Power Rangers: 1993-1996
X-Files: 1993-2002
Louis and Clark: 1993-1997
seaQuest DSV: 1993-1996
Frasier: 1993-2004
Sonic the Hedgehog: 1993-1994
Biker Mice from Mars: 1993-1996
Boy Meets World: 1993-2000
Live & Kicking: 1993-2001
Diagnosis Murder: 1993-2001
The Nanny: 1993-1999
Cheers: 1982-1993
Wheel of Fortune: 1975-present
Babylon 5: 1994-1998
Duckman: 1994-1997
Sister, Sister: 1994-1999
VR Troopers: 1994-1996
The Magic School Bus: 1994-1997
Touched by an Angel: 1994-2003
Friends: 1994-2004
Star Trek: Voyager: 1995-2001
Sliders: 1995-2000
Wishbone: 1995-1998
Dexter's Laboratory: 1996-2003
The Powerpuff Girls: 1998-2005
Cow and Chicken: 1997-1999
Courage the Cowardly Dog: 1999-2002
Johnny Bravo: 1997-2004
The Drew Carey Show: 1995-2004
Caroline in the City: 1995-1999
JAG: 1995-2005
Timon and Pumba: 1995-1998
Goosebumps: 1995-1998
3rd Rock from the Sun: 1996-2001
Moesha: 1996-2001
Nash Bridges: 1996-2001
The Daily Show: 1996-present
7th Heaven: 1996-2007
The Jamie Foxx Show: 1996-2001
Arthur: 1996-present
Everybody Loves Raymond: 1996-2005
Judge Judy: 1996-present
Spin City: 1996-2002
The Pretender: 1996-2000
Clueless: 1996-1999
Never Mind the Buzzcocks: 1996-present
The King of Queens: 1998-2007
Sex and the City: 1998-2004
That '70s Show: 1998-2006
Who Wants to Be a Millionaire?: 1998-present
Pokemon: 1997-present
Will & Grace: 1998-2006
Charmed: 1998-2006
Becker: 1998-2004
Batman Beyond: 1999-2001
Farscape: 1999-2003
Family Guy: 1999-2002, 2005-present
Futurama: 1999-2003, 2008-present
Home Movies: 1999, 2001-2004
SpongeBob SquarePants: 1999-present
Independent Lense: 1999-present
Law & Order: Special Victims Unit: 1999-present
Judge Mathis: 1999-present
Angel: 1999-2004
Malcolm in the Middle: 2000-2006
The Weakest Link: 2000-present
Girlfriends: 2000-2006
The Hughleys: 1998-2002
Yes, Dear: 2000-2006
Andromeda: 2000-2005
Dark Angel: 2000-2002
Gilmore Girls: 2000-2007
Ed: 2000-2004
Reboot: 1994-2001
Enterprise: 2001-2005
Alias: 2001-2006
Reba: 2001-2007
Scrubs: 2001-present
According to Jim: 2001-2009
Smallville: 2001-present
The Bernie Mac Show: 2001-2006
The PJs: 1999-2001
Mister Rogers Neighborhood: 1968-2001
Teletubbies: 1997-2001
Jamie Kennedy Experiment: 2002-2004
The George Lopez Show: 2002-2007
The Osbournes: 2002-2005
Kim Possible: 2002-2007
InuYasha: 2002-present
Daria: 1997-2002
Dharma & Greg: 1997-2002
VIP: 1998-2002
The Oblongs: 2001-2002
Chappelle's Show: 2003-2006
Mythbusters: 2003-present
American Chopper: 2003-present
Queer Eye for the Straight Guy: 2003-2007
Starting Over: 2003-2006
Las Vegas: 2003-2008
Two and a Half Men: 2003-present
One Tree Hill: 2003-present
Viva La Bam: 2003-2005
Battlestar Galactica: 2004-2009
Clifford the Big Red Dog: 2000-2004
Buffy the Vampire Slayer: 2003-2004
Robot Wars: 1998-2004
The L Word: 2004-2009
Pimp My Ride: 2004-2007
CSI: NY: 2004-present
Boston Legal: 2004-2008
Desperate Housewives: 2004-present
Drawn Together: 2004-2007
The Man Show: 1999-2004
The Surreal life: 2003-2006
King of the Hill: 1997-2009
South Park: 1997-present
Iron Chef America: 2005-present
Grey's Anatomy: 2005-present
Deadliest Catch: 2005-present
Weeds: 2005-present
Mind of Mencia: 2005-present
The Tyra Banks Show: 2005-present
My Name is Earl: 2005-2009
The Boondocks: 2005-present
Ben 10: 2005-2008
Star Wars: Clone Wars: 2003-2005
Jackie Chan Adventures: 2000-2005
The Hills: 2006-present
Simmons Family Jewels: 2006-present
Bleach: 2004-present
Rachael Ray: 2006-present
Brothers and Sisters: 2006-present
Ugly Betty: 2006-present
Man vs. Wild: 2006-present
Fear Factor: 2001-2006
Everybody Hates Chris: 2005-2009
Paul O'Grady Show: 2004-present
Anthony Bourdain No Reservations: 2005-present
Camp Lazlo: 2005-2008
Charlie and Lola: 2005-2009
Dancing with the Stars: 2005-present
Flip This House: 2005-present
Hogan Knows Best: 2005-2007
How I Met Your Mother: 2005-present
Inked: 2005-2006
Intervention: 2005-present
My Super Sweet 16: 2005-present
Run's House: 2005-present
Squidbillies: 2005-present
Trading Spouses: 2004-2007
Passport to Europe: 2004-2006
House: 2004-present
CSI: NY: 2004-present
Best Week Ever: 2004-2009
Xiaolin Showdown: 2004-2006
What Not to Wear: 2003-present
Punk'd: 2003-2007
Made: 2002-present
History Detectives: 2003-present
Dirty Jobs: 2005-present
Last Call with Carson Daily: 2002-present
Dr. Phil: 2002-present
The Grim Adventures of Bill & Mandy: 2001-2007
How It's Made: 2001-present
Trading Spaces: 2000-2008
MTV Cribs: 2000-present
TRL: 1998-2008
Modern Marvels: 1995-present
Globe Trekker: 1994-present
Law & Order: 1990-present
Ben 10: Alien Force: 2008-present
Denise Richards: It's Complicated: 2008-present
The Wendy Williams Show: 2008-present
Star Wars: The Clone Wars: 2008-present
D.L.Hughley Breaks the News: 2008-2009
MADtv: 1995-2009
The View: 1997-present
Aqua Teen Hunger Force: 2000-present
Adult Swim: 2001-present
Host Haunted: 2002-present
America's Next Top Model: 2003-present
The Biggest Loser: 2004-present
Survivorman: 2004-2008
Wife Swap: 2003-2009
Breaking Bonaduce: 2005-2007
Celebrity Fit Club: 2005-present
The Colbert Report: 2005-present
Moral Orel: 2005-2008
Little People, Big World: 2006-present
Metalocalypse: 2006-present
Janice Dickenson Modeling Agency: 2006-2008
The Emperor's New School: 2006-2008
The Hills: 2006-present
Engaged and Underage: 2007-present
Jon & Kate Plus 8: 2007-2009
Keeping Up with the Kardashians: 2007-present
The Sarah Silverman Program: 2007-present
Emeril Live: 1997-present
I Love New York: 2007-2008
Little Bush: 2007-2008
Montel Williams Show: 1991-2008
Flavor of Love: 2006-2008
World of Quest: 2008-2009
Assy McGee: 2006-2008
Boston Legal: 2004-2008
I'm From Rolling Stone: 2007
Bizarre Foods with Andrew Zimmern: 2006-2009
Rock of Love with Bret Michaels: 2007-2009
Celebrity Rap Superstar: 2007-2007
Gossip Girl: 2007-present
Reaper: 2007-2009
Pushing Daisies: 2007-2009
The Salt-N-Pepa Show: 2007-present
Afro Samurai: 2007-2007
The White Rapper Show: 2007-2007
Stargate SG-1: 1997-2007
Celebrity Deathmatch: 1998-2002
Bam's Unholy Union: 2007-2007
Harvey Birdman, Attorney at Law: 2000-2007
The Simple Life: 2003-2007
Tin Man: 2007-2007
Scooby Doo: 1969-present
Warehouse 13: 2009-present
The Wanda Sykes Show: 2009-present
Sesame Street: 1969-present
Nova: 1974-present
Austin City Limits: 1976-present
Nature: 1982-present
Real Sex: 1992-present
Late Show with David Letterman: 1993-present
Comedy Central Presents: 1998-present
True Life: 1998-present
The Ellen DeGeneres Show: 2003-present
Dollhouse: 2009-present
Top Chef: 2006-present
Ice Road Truckers: 2007-present
The Steve Wilkos Show: 2007-present
Man v. Food: 2008-present
Merlin: 2008-present
Primeval: 2007-present
How Clean is Your House?: 2003-2009

lastfm crap

Take your top 20 artists. For each of these artists, collect the top 5 similar artists. The resulting number of unique artists is your [b]eclectic score[/b]. If the score is small (extreme = 5) your musical preferences are very limited, and if it is large (larger than 80, extreme = 100), then you have an eclectic musical preference. You can compute your own score at http://anthony.liekens.net/pub/scripts/last.fm/eclectic.php


My eclectic score is currently

[align=center][size=18][b]91/100[/b][/size][/align]


The 91 related artists for my profile are A Fine Frenzy, Amiina (2), Arctic Monkeys, Bat for Lashes, Better Than Ezra, Blur, Bombay Bicycle Club, Broder Daniel, Cansei de Ser Sexy, Coldplay, Dan Wilson, Dead Disco, Dirty Pretty Things, El Perro del Mar, Fastball, Fever Ray, Foals, Frakkur, Franz Ferdinand (2), Frou Frou, George Harrison (2), Grammatics, Hot Leg, Jack Peñate, Jarvis Cocker, Jem, John Lennon, Johnny Foreigner, Jonny Greenwood, Jónsi & Alex, Kaiser Chiefs, Kasabian, Kate Havnevik, Kings of Convenience, Klaxons, Kleerup, Laakso, Lamb, Late of the Pier, Morcheeba, Muse, Neutral Milk Hotel, Oasis, Papa M, Passion Pit, Paul & Linda McCartney, Paul McCartney, Paul McCartney & Wings (2), Peter Doherty, Placebo (2), Portishead, Radiohead, Regina Spektor, Relaxed Muscle, Ringo Starr (2), Seven Mary Three, Shitdisco, Sigur Rós, Sigur Rós & Hilmar Örn Hilmarsson, Sky Larkin, Sponge, Stone Gods, Suede, The Answer, The Answering Machine, The Enemy, The Killers, The Libertines, The Maccabees, The Paddingtons, The Tears, The Teenagers, The Verve Pipe (2), The View, The Wallflowers, Thin Lizzy, Thom Yorke, Those Dancing Days, Timo Räisänen, Toadies, Tricky, Tripping Daisy, Turin Brakes, UNKLE, Velvet Revolver, White Lies, Wings, Yeti, Zhel, múm (2), Ólafur Arnalds (2)

the view

the view isnt bad here. you can see trees. in all the autumn colors. the buildings here look like mansions. they remind me of england. some redbrick. people on the ground say its old money. there are benches and a walkway. and across the street are more residences. the sky is blue today. its kindof early so we might do something. maybe go to the beach. maybe go to the park. there's a few museums to see. the open mics here seem like they suck. most of them run stupid gimmicky things. and they seem very inclusive. it seems like they're run by bostonians for bostonians. and then the fact that they talk to anita but not me. its kindof rediculous if you ask me. if youre gonna walk up to someone talk to them both. but the view isnt bad. you can't really see much but the tops of trees. and the sky is definately blue. we've got a mosquito net on our window. and there's condensation on the bottom. we use the ledge as a shelf. we're really kinda packed in here. trash in a bucket on the floor. pots and pans all over the kitchen. nothing to really eat with because everythings dirty. anita went out to do the laundry yesterday. so ive got at least a weeks worth of stuff to wear. maybe its been a bit harder on her than i thought. i had no idea that she was going through any difficulty. but such seems to be the case. she threatened to leave me out in harvard yesterday. gave me the ticket and everything. then she said if i left boston she would stay. i have no idea why any of this is happening. she says im being a bit whiney. but i haven't been any whinier than her. i guess when she does it its alright. cause then i guess she doesnt see herself doing it. and i guess when i do it thats the time to make a fuss about it. when we got to the place she sang one of my songs. she kinda took my thunder with it. and then she also told them that we're done. and then of course i really couldn't say anything since the guy insisted we get off. i guess they assumed that she was the leader and i was the backup. she kinda backstabbed me there. and then she tried to abandon me. she told me to shut up basically. she said she was tired of me talking. she just didn't wanna listen. to me thats some fuckin messed up shit. walkin on the streets there's alot of racism. sit on the benches and people'll stare. its the strange thing about people here. if anita says it, they just walk away. if i say it they try to argue. i guess they dont feel like i have a right to be there. i dont know whats going through their heads but its fucked up whatever it is. but i decided last night its time to restore my dignity. im not gonna have these people fuck with me anymore. i just remember feeling like a fool looking at these people guarding their lives. and there i was just being open and a fucking easy target. billy connolly makes it clear how dignity's meant to be done. and i have great examples in my parents. hold your head high, have some strength about you. have some dignity.