tenseness and denseness

seem to leave be defenseless. its this girl perhaps im not sure what she does but it kills me. closes me up and pressurizes my head. a conversation with an open person opens me up, but im reduced to blogging to get back to where i want to be on a typical day. ive refused the use of music as an aid because i want to experience my every in and out on the day. i'd rather avoid it than overly enjoy it and that way i make sure that i manage to do better things and see what that brings because thats more interesting to me and youll see ill try and do something new and something cool too and this will be what i try to make done and that'll be my current push for something fun but im tired of hiding behind music and now television and gaming these will go too in time these addictions have their own haven and it is not my body and mind its been far too unkind to me in my life so im leaving them behind and getting myself a new core and rind that'll be purer and cleaner and moreso me this twitch crazzy electronics age is now my true reality whilst i like teh sigur ros i need to get closer than most to the nature at hand and that'll keep me happy man that'll open me up and get me to no longer be fed up, open up and stop the tightness, that'll be something that'll keep me delighted. there seem to be a defecit of the benefits that ive grown to enjoy. strong and fit seems to be disallowed as people seem to walk around weak as hell and just as well for they dont know the joys of being a strong free person. liberated from the ploys of wayward girls nad boys, kids with beards and conservative bents. kid comes to visit and leaves hellbent. the destruction immense. the kinds mind completely dense and we in my defence had no idea of this damage dealt. so there is something that i dont understand why these types are still in demand but as we try to fix the wrongs then people go out and sing the songs instead of trying to fix it really hiding from problems instead of confronting them dearly thats the problem for goodness sake this hidden agenda will kill us all and we'll rake our reward as a retard and the things we do will be confused for stories and bluners things that'll come down like lightning and thunder and we've got to try and figure out what we're going to do there's nothing but me and you and we've got to get this right because it'll reward us with delight the fight we might find ourselves in will get ourselves closed up and held within thats the wrong way to do it the things we find ourself doing is foolish and stupid so we need to go and do all that we can we'll roam around and stay free of the land and we'll go around and do what we want but ill be liberated from the junk jaunt and that'll be better tha being bound by a sweater ive sweated your chains and they dont make me feel better im better than this and the kiss is better than the diss but the pains ive gained arent good and spoil me dude im trying to liberate this mind and satiate my need to no longer bleed be freed from the needless forced torture and adventurous foursome glory and other things that have me annoying and boring throughout the day every way i can find myself going through the mood never crude and always trying to find a way to leave those that were left behind moved here in 95 and it changed my life and this is the thing the mmigration is king and it ruined the family i couldnt communicate the calamity and that was somehting that had me hunting for truths so i spoke to those who knew and that got me to the point of understand the blistering and demanding way i go about each day is crazy but thats how it is i was laid and now get paid by none but at least it was fun on the stage nobody has come to see the show but it isnt cool though. the download of the elctronic crack goes tick tock tack the whack way we spend our day eyes in a gaze on the computer screen haze and this maze of words and ways we go with curds and speak to people at the store where they interupt my people we rty to speak but they stop us swiftly and try to masterfully keep ud thrifty but thats the way these people try to dominate its something terrible and a sick twist of fate being served by the server and told what to do thats hardly the way completely crude and rude dude and i wouldnt expect that completely whack and an absolute fact that these people are crazy but they're too lazy to try and avoid being hazy in stead they go about and try and act like trout flipping upriver against the current ist enough to make you reach for your quiver and try to go and do what you can to keep everyone from the terrible demand and this sees to be a major problem and there doesnt seem to be much else really... im trying to empy my head of the lead and heavy treads that keep me from being able to try and do what i can to be able to make the land... there's not much that we can do and we try and go through the ways we can to go through the daze and this keeps us from doing things...